So today is Saturday Jan 22. and its my ex's birthday... haha i know i left everything behind last year, but dates like today, you dont forget..
but yeah, its 1:30 pm and i need to start studying for midterms ! i have midterms all next week...and im so stressed out....
Today my aunt goes back to canada... and andy's mom leaves for china...
right now im just emotionally exhausted... i never thought it'd be hard to balance school, family, and a boyfriend... it definatly drains me out at times... like, im starting to realize its the most important years of my life.. and i really need to think about me only and just get through these 6 years then everything will be ok for me...
i dont know what to do at this point... i dont think i should be worrying about guys and everything
but its going to effect my relationship with andy becuase i need to focus on school and family....
as far as now, andy's been really understanding..but im afraid theres going to be that day when we cant handle it anymore and we have to go separate ways...
anyways i gotta study, and i'll blog about some other time... i have to survive this week >.<
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